Swirl of emotions…!!! I was going through..All decked up in that blue checked mundane hospital gown…was lying on my bed…I was getting ready to go inside OT.!..I could almost hear my heart beats, when a voice chimed in, a sweet looking Nurse with an arresting smile was standing by my bed, “Oh!! You are sweating in here”?? , and your palms are icy cold!! I Are you nervous??”
stupefied!! Wait..what?? What do u expect me to be then?? dancing now to some latest bollywood toe-tapping number ??I literally screamed in my head. On the contrary, all I Could manage to do was, cleared my throat and with a half smile I replied ,” No.! Its just I am a bit restless”.
“Dont worry maam !! You will be fine.! she left the room carrying her captivating smile leaving me behind with my restlessness ….I touched my forehead, a fine cold sweat had dampened my face and neck, my fingers…they were absolutely numb…and my lower limbs…I could hardly move them now..!!
It was a foggy winter morning of December,dull and dismal. I was clad in my winter wears , all packed from top to toe , was getting ready for my routine maternity check-up. when a little ray of sunshine,peeped through the pall of mist, entered my bedroom, and touched my only exposed parts my face and hands. I smiled and picked up my bag and left home with my husband .
“Oh! Dear, You are really having too less amniotic fluid now. I dont think we can make it till your due date now.”..My Gynecologist shrieked .”we will do it tonight, get your bag ready”
I almost jumped off my seat!! “How is the baby doing , doctor?I asked quite perturbed.
“Do not worry, baby is doing good so far.. It’s your AFI ( amniotic fluid index) which is low ..baby cant move much in there..So lets get it done tonight”..! She replied with assurance.
TONIGHT!!??? I wasn’t ready..I mean not at least tonight.! I had promised my daughter I would cook her favorite white sauce pasta …and read her another bed time story…and my work..what about my work!!? I was about to head to work straight after this routine check up..I gasped!!!…Few rhythmic voluntary deep breaths..and I said to myself…these things can wait….I can call my daughter and say her ,”Baby!!..Momma will make you your favorite pasta ,not tonight though..she will get back to home soon”.. I can call my boss and explain her and take my leaves with immediate effects..”!! Ok Let me do it now..!
Are you ready?? Oh You haven’t trimmed your nails yet? ..My Gynecologist said and snapped me out of my reverie..Actually I wasn’t ready for tonight Doctor!
I was in the bed of the materniy home, and few nurses were around me, one checking my vitals,another one unfastening my knots of gown. Soon they wheeled me into OT, elective C.S in next few minutes..Phew!!Surgical lights above, and here I am all set to bring the life inside me out. I could almost see my reflection on the big glass surfaces of those surgical lights. All agonies were vanishing…all worries fading away….all pains subsiding..Oh !! I was heavily sedated!!… Lights On!! Eyes closed!!
A feeble voice, a familiar feeble voice, whispered..”.congratulations!!You did it..Its a boy”..!
That sweet nurse with arresting smile, whispered stroking my cheeks. I could hear her clearly despite being stoned and amidst all the OT chaos.The only warm thing I could feel in that chilled room were my tears rolling down from either corners of my eyes..Tears of joy, after grueling labor!
Back to my cozy room,when they handed me over my little intruder,who had given me series of wakeful fidgety nights with his sudden kicks, umpteenth unwanted loo visits, and had made me one grumpy gluttony lady…And one look at him now…I felt another pain….another sweet pain must say…No my heart didn’t expand, actually!! I grew one more heart..”second heart for my second bundle of joy right there”.!!
My daughter on call. ” Mama! when will you come home? I miss you!”
coming home sweet heart..Will make you your delicious pasta soon..!!